Day to day struggles and the need to overcome them

It's weird thing coming home. I feel I want to go out to dinner every night. As a matter of fact I went out to dinner with my mom last night at a place called Bluu that serves succulently creative burgers and deliciously fishy sushi. My mom had the Tuscan salad the consisted of tomatoes, white beans, Gorgonzola cheese, and fried thinly sliced onion rings with a creamy dressing. I had the crazy dragon roll that is a California roll with avocado and eel on the outside with some awesome, addicting, MSG  brown sauce. They have really good sushi there. I mean really good. Really really good. You should probably go there and get some sushi. 

Dinner almost always turns into a therapy session with my mom.  Probably because she's a therapist in real life.  I mean I walk into it every time! I know its coming and we have meaningless small talk until the dragon rears its ugly head. Once the slightest bit of feelings or emotions squeeze through the cracks of a broken conversation there is no turning back. I had no choice but to dive right in. We talked about personal things such as my parents divorce and how this event has made me very emotionally stuck.  How this event that was completely out of my control has created a compulsive need to control every situation. How this event that was completely out if my control has made me look for comfort in other aspects if my life such as shopping and eating.  Life is all about balance but right now I just cannot seem to find it. Where'd it go? Where are you balance?! How does one go about finding something that has been lost for years?

Making lists and forming routines is my temporary solution to this problem.

things I can't live without:
getting my nails done
getting my hair cut
apples
oranges
tea with honey
a routine

Sunshine

A body of water

The moon

Pictures

Music

Dancing

things I can live without:
candy
brownies

Material things

Self doubt

Self consciousness

Low self esteem

Impatience

A bad mood

Rudeness

things i need to accept:
I'm not perfect.
I should ask for help when i need it.

Love the person I am today and love the person I have yet to be.

Find out who I am and who I want to be 

I don't need to be liked by everybody, the most important thing is to like myself.

I can't control the weather so embrace the rain and the sunshine.

Sometimes people just don't know how to drive and they can't hear you when you scream at them with your windows up to pull over.

Everyone deserves to eat ice cream.

If you smile others will follow your lead.

Patience is a wonderful skill to develop.

I am not the only person on this planet who feels like this, the world does not revolve around me.

Credit is given where credit is due.

I can go on and on but you get the general idea. Very insightful right? Soul searching at its best. One resource that I don't think many people utilize are therapists and counselors.  If you find the right one they can be life changing.  

What helps you get through the day?

What resources do you use to help you figure out your life?

What do you struggle with on a day to day basis?

What do you need to accept in your life?