Waking up with the craving to eat the cookie dough in the fridge is not normal. I know that. Yet I still give in to the temptation and have a few spoonfuls. Instant gratification, losing control, guilt, impatience all looming over my head as I close my eyes and swoosh around the wonderfully chewy, sugary, chocolate chip cookie dough in my mouth. Nothing feels better as it goes in, yet feels horrible seconds after it enters my digestive system. I anticipate the end result: stomach writhing in pain, expanding waist line, increasing hip size and am affirmed when these appear in a matter of minutes. Why does it taste so good yet feel so bad? Why do I enter this vicious cycle of self-loathing when I know exactly what will happen? Instant gratification. Escape. Mindless living. If life is good, why do I find the need to use food to escape? What am I hiding from? Being hurt, being let down, fear of the unknown. This woman seemed to read my thoughts exactly.
A life searching for answers is no life at all. Accept each day for what it is and move forward.
'A life searching for answers is no life at all. Accept each day for what it is and move forward'
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I'm pretty sure waking up with the craving to eat cookie dough IS normal... and expanding waist line and hips can't possibly appear in a matter of minutes - if writhing stomach pain appears that quickly, maybe you have a food intolerance! Or maybe it's the stress and guilt... or maybe you just ate too much cookie dough like I often do :) Therefore, I never allow cookie dough to stay in my fridge. I cook it! And then I hide half the cookies in the back of the freezer so that I can't eat the entire batch within the first hour... the freezer buys me at least another hour.
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